On this last day of 2012, I spent some time thinking of some wishes I have for the coming year. Most importantly, I want to make 2013 a happier year than 2012. I seemed to spend a lot of time feeling very negative and anxious. I don't want to live my life that way. I don't want to spend my time being disappointed with what I have and wishing for something more. I have a long bucket list of things I want to do, be or accomplish this year.
**I am giving myself a reality check and acknowledging that some of these things may not happen.**
Let's get started. I am going to list them in no order of priority. I am going to categorize them by ultimate goals and then what I need to accomplish in order to reach that goal.
*Tough Mudder (June) --> 3 days/week Run training
--> 3 days/week Strength training
--> run < 9.5 minutes per mile
--> 10K run (April)
--> Dirty Girl 5K (May)
*Half Marathon (October) -->same as above.
*Be Healthier --> 3 days/week run training
--> 3 days/week strength training
--> Eat healthier
--> Sleep better
--> Talk & visit with friends and family more
*Christmas Caribbean Cruise
*NYC to see a Broadway show
*Make the house our home --after 7 years of living here, I still feel as though this isn't our home. It still feels as though we rent from hubby's parents and now that we don't have the daycare in the home, it's time to really make it our own. I'm excited to be able to do what we want inside our home.
One thing you may notice missing is a reference to having a baby. I have absolutely no control over that happening naturally. We have incorporated everything we can do at home, ourselves. It's not that I want to give up per se...but we have to save for any fertility treatment we may need (specifically IVF). That can't happen right now. It feels as though we are always saving for something, always waiting for something, never fully living. I am tired of feeling like that. It's depressing. It highlights what we don't have rather than focusing on what we do have, which is each other, our health, a home and 4 loving and wonderful pets. We have our friends and our families and it's time we return to prioritizing them and our happiness with each other rather than something that's missing. Don't get me wrong, I want a baby more than anything, but I have to be able to have a life while we wait to be blessed naturally OR we have enough to have the treatments we need. I don't want having or not having a baby to be the only thing that matters. It's hard, though, to just turn off the cycle of baby thoughts that runs through anyone's mind who is TTC. Especially for a woman who, after 3 1/2 years is so in tune with her body, she knows where she is in her cycle without a chart or cell phone app. I still plan to monitor my bbt. But that's it. I want to focus more on being healthy physically, emotionally and spiritually.
Which leads me to my last resolution:
*Be Happier ON PURPOSE -->Talk & visit more with friends and family
I have a long list of things to focus on. I am really excited to get started in less than 12 hours. And I want to wish you a very HAPPY NEW YEAR!
I wish you all the health and happiness you hope for in 2013!!